uhm.. my first entry.
should i celebrate that now? hmm, guess not...
actually i am asking myself why i write that, knowing that, if at all, people who read that do it by accident, and are gone as fast as they have come... :) but anyway, i talk to myself often anyway, so if private or in public.. where is the difference?
but maybe there is the unconcious need in me to write that in order to be enabled to come out a bit from that deep gorge of insignificance... but maybe i just force myself to write, just to have written at least one entry :) i realize that i use smiles even in a diary; its not the first time i realize that, but its interesting to see that i have the strong need to put facial expressions into _every_ of my writings. That is a very bad thing in guess.. if i use smiles all the time, i might loose the ability to express my emotions through words, which makes me poorer in some ways i guess. despite the fact that i can't really express my feelings anyway, especially not in english, it invokes a bad feeling.
anyway.
today i did nothing productive. i studied for my final exam, thus i haven't had much time to spend with 3Dsia.. i just cleaned up the code a bit, but did not implement any of the absolutely necessary features today. nothing. and how should we make the release this week?? impossible i guess..
anyway, i am extremely tired now
school again tomorrow.. but just 20 days left!!!

i think i can get used to writing a diary; makes fun and is good for my english :)