truly appreciated this week's discussion (often titled open source is dead, but covering the more general what is happening to all of our projects and why? this discussion is spreading or something. A related topic on scripting.com refers to the discussion by the moniker "open-source-as-flop". dave has some valid comments that i normally choose to ignore, but this time i choose to accept the verdict concerning customer support among the developers in our cause. i'm thinking RTFM is fine for interoffice remarks but a too abrasive for real users. if you read dave's article that i linked up there, read the doc searls viewpoint too. his point kind of goes along with all of our points mashed together. personally, i'm glad of the hype and the wave swells that introduced me to the bazaar. it's been very good times so far and will assuredly continue to be.
i am so glad to be done with the most difficult year of my life. with all of the world chaos this year, i'll bet you can relate. i've weathered my parent's divorce well, fought financial disturbance to victory, and endured the toughest inner depression and insanity i have ever faced.
i hate crying. crying makes me feel stupid. i wish i didn't hate it though, so i could cry tonight and feel the full emotional experience of letting this year go by. ah well. someday i think i'll be able to have an oceanic moment that will cover the complete catalog of experience i've had. hopefully in such a way that i can understand. perhaps that will be death.
i know new year's doesn't really mean a whole lot. it's a moment like any other moment during a day. but i can't help but give it meaning, as i'd like to just allow myself the gladness of a deep breath as the clock changes and sweeps away that long year that hurt so bad.