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I'm terribly disappointed. Surely the Lord of Darkness, Supreme Ruler of Hell, Prince of Evil, Master of Deception, M'lord Satan can come up with much more inventive ways of getting back at a person than to certify them down!


I'm glad you're there and safe.


Le sigh. Oh well. Not really worth saying much.


Dancer is happy. This is good. Seph (our cat) is also happy. This is also good. SimSafari is actually challenging my intellect right now. This is /not/ so good.


Sleep is useful. Sleeping tablets, much as I hate them, can also be useful. When I take the tablets, I get /deep/ sleep - much more useful than shallow sleep.


There's been a problem with the GPL potentially not being an actual 'contract'. Does UCITA actually validate the GPL? Fix the problem with it not being 'signed'?

I'd like a US legalhead to look into that! The Big Commercial Companies can't have it both ways.


The two actually are intimately connected. The healthier I am, the more work I get done. I've not been able to do solid blocks of work, but by doing it in short (five minutes at a time) bits I'm managing to get Programming Fundamentals written. (It's one of the Netizen training manuals.)

I enjoy my work. I enjoy achievement. I enjoy appreciation. It distresses me when I can't do it.


I've avoided saying anything about the certification. But I will say this:

I'm flattered and pleased that the people who know what I do, consider me a Journeyer. Those people also know how much (or rather how little) I actually accomplish, and certify me as Journeyer despite that. It is extremely good for me to be rated that - it somehow gets it into my head that I can limit my activity to what I can safely accomplish, and still do something worthwhile for someone.

So there. Certification can be good for your health.

jdub said
...and suddenly, everything works perfectly, and so, so wonderously better. First things to install: Python, Zope and Xen (outrageously cool software developed HERE in AUSTRALIA!)

Thanks, jdub. :)


I'm gradually feeling up to writing again. Currently working on Programming Fundamentals, with the Trainer's Guides (for the Netizen training courses) and Xen documentation as things-to-do-when-I-stall.

And I'm stalling far too often.


Still not well. ARGH!

And after such a long run of Really Being Able To Work. Oh well. Guess I'll just work from home, in ten-minute lots if that's what it takes. I just have to make sure to take breaks as soon as I get tired.


Dancer is being very caring and loving. It's nice. But it's also a sign that I'm unwell - in his opinion. Which is probably accurate.

If he's being slow on Exult or Squid, it's probably my fault. :/


Looks like I'm finally recovering from this latest 'down'. I just caught myself looking forward to writing. My brain's working again!

(This doesn't mean I'm healthy by any objective standard. Just healthier subjectively.)

Of course, I also slept fifteen hours today.


A friend of mine gave me a useful heuristic for the question 'should I try to work'.

Imagine you were going to do your favourite task - the kind of job that's the reason you went into the field. If you're too sick to do that, you're too sick to work.

I've also realised that I value my health less than I value achievement. I need to adjust that. If I value my health more, I will improve achievement. And happiness. And be able to spend more time with those I love, and doing things I love.

It was essential, when I started to get sick, that I learn not to fret about not having health. But the value system I created then is now hindering my recovery.


Potentially useful, but it's still almost impossible to adequately categorise the LinuxChix FAQs.

And can someone with influence at Sourceforge please ask them to include some Open Content/Open Publication/Free Documentation licence(s) in their licence list?

LinuxChix FAQs

No progress this week, beyond installing a patch. Every time I try to use my brain, it protests.


See previous sentence. My brain is protesting any use more intense than reading Terry Pratchett and playing FreeCell. I can't even play X-Beyond the Frontier. I can barely play The Sims.

I keep picking up some of the folders of workstuff I have here, and poking at them, and then trying to poke at the writing. And realising some time later that I'm just /staring/.

Ah well. Netizen has clue about CFS. Understanding employers rule!


"Life is pain, Highness. Anyone who tells you otherwise is selling something."

I'm wobbly - my balance is unreliable. My eyes and head are sore. Hell, everything's sore. I can't concentrate. I _know_ I don't dare drive. My sinuses are acting up. My gut is acting up. I'm awake for a couple of hours, then I want to sleep and usually can't.

And I feel guilty because I only managed to get three hours of work done today.

I can't /really/ be sick. I haven't thrown up, turned green, or acquired spots.

Sigh. I really, really need to learn what 'being healthy' feels like. So I can use that as a baseline, and know when I'm not healthy, and it's legitimate for me to not work.


Well, Skud appears to have just invalidated some of my work today. Never mind, it's just a small bit. I did some work on the trainer's guides for the Netizen training modules. And we both knew the databases one was going to be changed, so there wasn't much in the databases one for me to do.

Not a problem.

Got a fair bit done. I think. I don't really know.

Bloody hell. Forgot to CVS commit. Will do that now!

Gender debate

Lilo has provided the only good argument I've ever seen for not talking about gender issues. I'll have to think about it.

I do think that he's wrong (ahem) in characterising the debate as "'you're wrong' 'no you're wrong'". But perhaps it is. I try to make it 'hmm. I hear what you're saying, but my experience is X'.. which, I guess, maybe does boil down to 'my experiences are a counter-example to your argument'. I don't like telling people they're wrong, but I do feel that counter-examples are good. But from outside my skull, maybe it comes across as 'you're wrong'. So lilo may be right. :/

I discuss gender not to highlight differences (as lilo's last paragraph implies), but to attempt to ensure that people are aware of subconscious cultural tendancies towards each other. (and that's male-male and female-female, as well as female-male) BTW: it's NOT a linguistics issue. It's a culture issue. It's the cognitive dissonance that matters, not the origin of the word.


jwalther, I love scones, either with or without jam, but I can't imagine what possesses anyone to drink tea. Under any circumstances. It's awful stuff.


I'm getting ticked off with places I've never heard of telling me 'you are receiving this email because you have requested information from us in the past'. Sigh.

My day

Gee, thanks Bryce. You summed up a large part of my life here: "unfortunately there isn't much you can say about a day which is composed of waking up, coughing lots, going to work, writing documentation, then going home." I guess that's what I get for being a CFS-recovering documenter. :)

Hm. Y'know, Bryce really did sum up my day. Dammit.

Gender Issues again - ignore if desired

Well. Quite a lot of interesting and useful information came out of this. Information on opinions and attitudes, which is very very helpful to me.

I appreciate people who take the time to write a comment about this, even though I know it's boring a lot of people. It's all useful for the LinuxChix Issues FAQ. I've seen LinuxChix do a LOT of good already - lots of women (and girls) saying things like 'I didn't know there were other women into this sort of thing' and 'I found the local LUG really scary - I'm glad this place is here!'.

So everyone who takes time to read this stuff, everyone who contributes to it, and everyone who tolerates it and waits for it to go away is helping an advocacy project. Thank you.

Radagast, Iain, mojotoad and rwatson: I've clipped sections of each of your responses. Would you mind if I put them (or the ideas stated there) in the issues FAQ in some form?

Now, should I respond _here_ to these additional comments? No, probably not - the Advogato community seems to be tired of this discussion. If I could break it off into a thread, then maybe.

Question for the community

How would people feel if I posed a draft of the Issues FAQ as an article, and requested comment? It would doubtless create another of these massive discussions, which would be very very good for the FAQ - but probably spammy as hell for those uninterested in this discussion. I could/would request that people keep their comments to the article, where they're easily avoided by the uninterested.

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